I hate you hans blix!

Yesterday, me and some of my friends were at the casino, and it was fun. Very much fun in fact. It wasn't so much the gambling that made my night, but the people and their behavior. You see, the casino was quite crowded, and I was rather lucky to find an vacant roulette machine. When I sat down, and my friends started playing at the nearby machines, I started to look around at my fellow gamblers. What I saw was a collection of the most eccentric people I had ever seen. (Except for maybe some of the cybergothics on a regular cyberia party, but thats a whole other story.) For starters, you had the asian mob gang, a group of asian, criminal looking men that gambled huge amounts of money without flinching. Then you had steven seagall, not the real one ofcourse, but his long lost twin brother, coming to deliver justice to all those evil croupiers that secretly forge your chips. And next to me another strange asian man, wearing sun glasses in a dark room, like he was playing poker. Only, he wasnt playing poker, just losing a lot of money in a roulette machine. All these men had the same kind of gold-digging wives- bored looking women, dumb as forever, with an attitude that screams "WILL MARRY FOR MONEY". And further more the bums, weirdo's, hillbillys, germans, etc etc. One thing they all had in common tho - when I rose from my chair to check my friends' progress, they all came, like vultures to a corps, to check the availability of my machine. Upon seeing I had not yet perished, and succumbed to the awe inspiring might of the roulette machine, but was very alive and kicking, they gave a condescending look at my but kicking amount of chips (20), and my daring bets(usually 3 to 4 chips), and slowly retreated afterwards into the masses of other vultures prying for my throne.

Oh yes I had fun. Totally worth the 15 euro I lost in mindless gambling ;)

My movie

Your pretty :)

Seven little spiders,
creeping softly up my veign.
To my heart is where they're headed,
they hurt me not, I feel no pain.

In it they will weave their threads,
Build a house of soft silk whole.
Only one sweet girl can live there,
The girl that bears the name nicole :)

You can dust it off and try again.

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.

Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.

If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.

scorpions - still loving you

Send me into orbit

I will try to get up

To leave these walls behind me

To feel

The way I used to feel

To reveal

Who I am..

Code 64 - Orbit


So yeah, things are doing ok. I don't miss her as much anymore, though occasionally I still get smacked to the ground. As for school, things couldn't be better really. The people are mostly very nice, I'm really doing what I love to do, and it feels right. I hope I get accepted, but thats not yet an issue. Financially things are still tight, but I hope to resolve that soon enough. Not really much to add I think. Oh, right I forgot: for all you who have been enjoying my poetry, even if it is only one person: http://gemstor.deviantart.com/ My deviant page where I store my poetry. I will continue to post them here aswell, but on that page you have a better overview then here.

Haiku

Tears are setting sail


Dropping on the nearby floor..


my soul is at ease.

Synthesize me..

Synthesize me

And reboot

I need to start again

I need to make it different

All unguarded

All without

The will to play along

A song to say goodbye..

Leaving you, it was the hardest,
Thing I’ve ever had to do.
Never again your smile your touch,
In the way it used to be.
Never again your kiss, your smell,
You are once again free..

Thinking back on the days gone by,
The times when things were fine,
I can’t escape that crushing thought,
“You are no longer mine..”

Solitary

That's right, it's 2 am. No i'm not having trouble sleeping, I' m working. Yes working. Why do you ask? Because of the fine salary you get for working at shifts no sane person wants? A big bunch o' buckeroos for giving up on your social life? Because of the good company? The great working conditions? Its not even because I get to sit on my ass all night long, cause I cant! I have to work my ass off for a starvation wage, in night shifts. Oh well, not long till Ima find myself a proper job :) I've been saying that for some time now..

And if rain brings winds of change,
let it rain on us forever,
I have no doubts from what I've seen,
I have never wanted more.

With this line I'll mark the past,
as a symbol of beginning,
I have no doubt from what Ive seen,
I have never wanted more.

Vnv nation - solitary

I'm gonna give it another try, this blogging. I got a little weary of it due to the fact that I felt that nobody was reading it anyway. But my girl asked me several times to update it again, so I guess at least one person is interested. What happened! Well, the vacation wich I announced in my last post happened. It was so awesome! We just spend our days at the beach, reading a book, just being with eachother and her family ofcourse. It was awesome. Then, 5 minutes after I came home, disaster struck, and I got word of a close friend who was in a mental hospital after having a psychosis. It was at the same time I had to lead a camp, and it was rather stressfull, cause i was on the phone with the clinic have of the time, and the other half doing groceries and games with and for the freshmen. But the camp was really cool. Sing star owns x)

Now I gotta work. But I'm sure the course I enrolled for will be fun. I just hope some nice people will be there.. Oh well.

the words I have the spells I know
were not enough to make you happy
to make you smile again