dwindlings of my mind

I was riding the train yesterday, on my way from my beloved girlfriend Nicole, to my great friend and provider-of-shelter in Leiden, Chris. I sat across a guy, a rather normal looking guy with a huge appetite it seemed. After watching him frenzy for a while I turned to my music. I hooked myself on my headphones, and turned up the volume. The first song was immediately a beautifull one, and I closed my eyes for a bit and was for a moment completely lost in the music. When I opened my eyes again, the guy across me smiled. And that's where our conversation started. We talked about my music, his food, his gameconsole. But the extraordinairy thing was, it was a conversation without words. Just gestures and smiles told our storys. ..... Either that or he was just laughing at me.

Lyrics and stuff

A lyric I find very, very pretty.

Assemblage 23 - Dissapoint

Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?
No

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on the shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you.

Music schmusic

Check out the music I listnen to, at http://www.last.fm/user/gemstor

A poem.

"Absence"

Say that you love me one more time.

Lift my burden ease my pain,

Missing the touch of our soft lips

Makes me go insane.

The smell of your skin,

Imbedded in my dreams.

Envisioning you everywhere I go,

Your irreplaceable it seems.

Hold me in a warm embrace,

Say you'll never let me go.

Tell me that you need me to,

God I miss you so.

Your absence is maddning,

Your precense is to,

Cause what we had is gone for good,

Our love can not be through.

But it is, you told me so.

I'll bear another load,

My unanswered love for you,

Grabs me by my throat.

A shadow, dark,

A burning rage.

Its tormenting me time and again,

Making me faint,

Making me weak,

They say it ends but when..

Welcome to my blog. I will use this blog to post the things that stirr my soul, which I would like to share with you. Mostly poems, but sometimes other stuff.

Enjoy,

Memento Mori.